I don’t know about you, but I know that I have gone through some things in my life that I have been embedded into the back of my mind. Those types of memories that you try so hard to suppress, but then when you think all is well, they reappear.
To be honest with you guys, that happens to me way to often. In those times of stillness, those thoughts of pain and hurt would resurface. For so long, I believed that it was Satan trying to cause me to fall. I would get so mad and upset at that fact, of having to face what happened to me all over again.
But today, I was reading a blog and the specific post was about self-harm. This post changed my whole perspective on why these specific memories keep coming back. One part of the recovery process was to begin to accept what happened and to think it through. How did it make you feel, what did it change about you… etc. So once you get past all that, you try your hardest to just forget about it like it never occurred. But in reality….
It did.
And it hurt you pretty bad, if it caused you to harm yourself. This event is a part of you. Whether it be rape, molestation, divorce, abuse or even neglect. There is a long list of things that could have caused you to get to that point. But once you have gotten through that you try to move past it all. It gets pretty hard when these thoughts keep coming into your mind. The way that they put it was so plainly and I absolutely loved it. I knew that I needed to share it with you.
“When old wounds resurface, I need to remember that God wants to do a deeper healing in my life without the need to harm myself”
How profound and amazing is that. Whether you have a past with self-harm, you still have those resurface moments.
God wants to take us deeper. God wants us to be healed, He desires for us to lean on Him for this. This shows His divine love and compassion for our brokenness, that He would want to further our healing.
We must accept the fact that we will never be the same, but we do not need to settle for the pain that is found after it. You are not alone in your suffering. Christ has a plan and a want for you to be healthy. What He desires most, is for you to give Him your brokenness and trust that He will fix it. He is so powerful and magnificent but yet He wants to hold our hearts?
That absolutely blows my mind. The Creator of the universe desires a relationship with me? No way. It’s true though. If you are dealing with resurfacing occasions, remember this: God is just healing your wounds. Don’t let Satan use it as a foothold to bring you down. In Christ, you are strong and are capable of recovery. Surrender it over to Christ, and you will finally find a peace that passes all understanding. Be encouraged.
“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers them from all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.” Psalms 34:17-20